Can God Use Me Like Peter or Paul?
I’ve seen more of a trend in the last few years in Christianity – people talk about God usually picking from people who’ve lived in terrible sin. They say things like don’t worry about feeling unqualified to be used by God because He “usually recruits from the pit, not the pedestal.”
Over the past few years, I’ve been greatly discouraged by this on a personal level. I felt like I’d been set aside. I never lived in any way that most people would consider “great sin.” I grew up in church, was a good little Sunday school girl, memorized my verses, went to Awana, went soul winning on Saturdays, all of it.
I mean I remember being taught that if I lived right, (after salvation through faith in Christ alone), I’d equip myself to be more capable of being used by God.
Now that I’m an adult, I see this different viewpoint all over the place though. It seems to say that if I’d lived a life filled with sin growing up, I could have been used more by God now. That somehow because I didn’t “disqualify” myself, then I’m actually now less qualified to be used by Him.
It’s very disheartening and frankly, confusing.Does God usually recruit from the pit or the pedstal? Click To Tweet
Then I look at what God actually shows us in the Bible.
God used both Apostle Peter and Apostle Paul.
First There Was Paul…
Paul was a religious zealot, literally a Pharisee of the highest degree. He lived a life worthy of no reproach within the Jewish religion. We count him as a “murderer” because he went after Christians, but that was his religious zealotry. He thought he was serving God when he did all that. Before that point, he was without reproach. He lived a life of cleanliness, following the rules, studying diligently, doing what he had learned God wanted of him. Ultimately Paul was a religious intellectual who valued clean living and strict adherence to God’s law.
Because if God were not behind Jesus Christ then Paul was doing what the Jewish scriptures would have required of him.
And Then There Was Peter…
In contrast, Peter was a rough man, a man who grew up learning fishing as a trade, a man who lived by the hard work of his hands. He was not an intellectual… he didn’t mince words… he valued action. The Bible doesn’t tell us that he lived a life of sin, but he at least knew a few curse words and when pushed by extreme stress, used them. Curse words don’t compare with living a life of debauchery, I understand that. And we don’t actually know anything much about Peter before he met Christ. Perhaps he was a man who strove to live according to the Jewish law as well, but for this purpose here, he does contrast with Paul in many significant ways.
Looking at this objectively, you could say God used Paul to a greater degree than He used Peter. At least within the realm of teaching other Christians how to be Christ-like, God used Paul far more. Paul’s missionary work in multiple countries had a wider reach and did more to cement Christianity on a broader plane than Peter’s reach ever attained, at least that we know of.
Though we don’t have a record of Peter’s individual reach.
So here’s what I see. God used both of them.
God Uses His Children
Paul had a more public, broader reach. Peter’s perhaps was more on the one-on-one level, though Peter was also in public leadership.
Was any of this directly related to the differences in the men’s former lives? Was it because of their different upbringing?
I think it’s entirely possible. What your life looked like before Christ can influence how God uses you, but now I think it’s more based on personality rather than God disqualifying us because of some specific act we did or didn’t do.
Perhaps it was never accurate for me to be told that “if I lived right, then God can use me more.” Perhaps it was always that God channels each of us in different directions based on our background, but He will always use all of His children.
Because God used Peter, just in different ways.
God used Paul to teach a wide range of believers how to set up churches, how to influence societies, how to have an impact on the world. God used Peter to do some of those same things, but perhaps on a more personal level.
And where would we be today if either of those uses had not happened?
God Use Me
Ultimately, we don’t follow God’s commands because then “God can use me…”
We follow God’s commands because God said so.
So that frees us, doesn’t it? It would mean that wherever we begin, we follow God’s commands from that point forward – no regret for what we “may have missed out on” because of our past. Only going forward obeying God now, because from that point forward, God will use us.It doesn't matter if our past was good or bad, God WILL use us. Click To Tweet
So now I’d like to rephrase that title at the top. In our minds, we shouldn’t look at ourselves and those around us a “Peter or Paul,” but rather look at ourselves as “Peters and Pauls.”
No matter which one we are in the ranks of Christianity, we’re pulling together. We’re walking down this path together with Christ, leaving behind those things that came before and walking toward the prize in front of us.
What About You?
Did you have an impression of Christianity or God as a child that you’ve had to adjust as an adult? What did you do to help yourself adjust to that new realization?
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Thank you so much for being candid, Sherry. To be honest, I use to feel that way, too. Growing up I was the good church girl. I’ve had things happen to me that were hard, but when I first became a Christian, (really accepted Christ as a savior not just what we did on Sundays) I struggled to see my own sin because I didn’t have a brightly checkered past. I knew all had sinned, but I couldn’t see specific examples in my life that I needed to ask forgiveness for. Looking back, I was very judgemental of others. I’m sure there’s more, but that’s the one that jumps out at me. I struggled to get anything out of the sermons on Sundays because it felt like the pastor was talking to the people who weren’t good church girls – and there were a lot of them (at least that was my thought process). I’ve come along way since then, but God didn’t change. The message the pastors preach didn’t change. My heart changed. I guess I grew up in Christ.
Anyways, I love that you point out that God can use the good and the bad. We are all sinners, but we don’t have to be Rahab, we can be Esther. And Ruth didn’t look at Naiomi and tell her to stop whining, she loved and respected her. There are lessons we can learn from all of the people in the Bible. Just like God can use each and every person today.
I love your honesty, Sherry. I wonder if God uses people to reach those who are like them. Someone who has lived in sin in the past can’t relate to the lifelong church girl, and the lifelong church girl can’t relate to living with a tainted past. Church girls struggle too, and we need each other to keep us walking in faith all of our lives. Keeping the saved is just as important as reaching the lost and I think this is what we lifers are used for.