Looking to Jesus & Resting In His Embrace
“No Worries,” the text read.
I was clueless, so of course, my first thought was, should I be worried?
My husband and I had been texting, but I had a massive migraine. It wasn’t the first time that day that I had forgotten what was going on. At some point that morning my head hurt so bad I laid down to take a nap… I don’t know when. I know I ate breakfast and took a shower, but I don’t remember in what order or if I did anything else.
At this point, I think it’s safe to say my memory impairment is getting worse.
Thankfully, I was able to look back at the texts we had already sent and refresh my memory. Even though they were only a couple of minutes old. My momentary panic was over. Everything was fine.
P.S. People say, “No worries,” all the time as a way to respond to something that’s not a big deal.
Like, “I haven’t heard from so and so yet.”
“Okay, whatever… no worries.”
I was talking to a friend today about my memory loss. This friend also has some health issues that cause some minor memory loss. Anyway, I mentioned how scary it can be sometimes to realize that you have no clue what is going on. Like in the conversation I mentioned above. Or when you lose an entire day.
Forget My Memory, I’ve Lost My Focus
It was in the midst of that conversation that I realized that my focus was in the wrong place.@_HeatherHart's focus was in the wrong place… and focus makes all the difference. Click To Tweet
We’ve all heard the story of Peter walking on water. I’ve even blogged about it a time or two. But I’ve never seen it so vividly played out in my life before.
Throughout the past couple of years, I’ve been clinging to Jesus. I’ve been trying my best to keep my eyes set on Him.
There was the time that I wanted to give up, but I let Jesus call me out of the boat. And I have been steadily moving forward, eyes on Christ since then. Sure, there are times I stumble, but I don’t think I have ever fully dropped my gaze to the waves until now.
But that’s where I have been with this memory thing.
Fighting Fear with Jesus
All I have been able to focus on is what I can’t remember. On what I’ve lost, and what I’m continuing to lose. On what that might mean for my future.
So today, I’m shifting my gaze back to Jesus.
I don’t have any answers. No new revelations. But I’m echoing Peter’s cry, “Lord, save me” (Matt. 14:30).
I don’t know what tomorrow will hold. Or if I will even remember it. But I know I can put my trust in Jesus, no matter what I forget.
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What about you?
The story about Peter walking on water is a popular one. Fighting fear is a popular topic. Books have been written about it. Authors and speakers want to empower women to overcome.
But let’s be honest. Life is hard. The wind and waves that distracted Peter were just as real and scary as some of the circumstances we face in our everyday life.
Have you ever let something real and scary distract you from trusting in Jesus?
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I’ve recently been diagnosed with a chronic illness and find that I’m struggling with some mental “fogginess” and just can’t seem to hold information the way used to. Migraines always make things worse, don’t they? I hope things improve for you, but am grateful you know the Lord is with you even when the wind and waves are overwhelming.
Peace and grace,
That original fogginess was frustrating. I remember that much. Praying you are able to keep your eyes fixed on Jesus and give yourself grace on the bad days. ?
There have been times I let circumstances distract me from keeping my eyes on Jesus. One thing that helps me regain and keep focus is worship music. Thank you Heather for this vulnerable and exhorting post ♥️ I’m praying for you.
Thanks, Jennifer. Worship music is wonderful, isn’t it?
Many times I have faced feeling fearful to trust God was do something. Sounds a bit embarassing to say but its true. I think the hardest part of that is the time we can waste by not going to finally walk on the water . Because like Peter we can think Jesus is barely there and looks like a faded shadow in the dark. But we have to know that He is real, been there the whole time, and was the one that called us by name to the water. Thank you for sharing with vulnerability!
I find a lot of times things we think or feel sound a bit rediculous or embarissing when or if we put words to them. But that doesn’t make them any less real or true. And you are so right, it’s like we torture ourselves when Jesus is right there. And we know it.
Lately, I have been praying that God would help me to keep my eyes on Him, trust Him more and not give in to fear. The battle is so very real so often. The enemy knows my weak spots and keeps throwing those darts of fear. It really does make a huge difference when I am focused on Jesus, keeping my eyes there is a problem at times. I am thankful for God’s grace and help. I will be praying for you, thanks for sharing.
Thanks, Monica. Praying for you today as well. Satan definitely knows how to push our buttons. But God is always good. And He never leaves us or forsakes us.
Focus is something I battle more with each passing month. I, too, struggle with chronic illness, but I have to admit it’s not the greatest cause of my distraction or memory loss. I think there’s just too much going on. I’ve been working hard to minimizing what I let into my heart and mind and schedule. It’s impossible to focus when there’s music playing, kids talking, the TV on, supper cooking, and I’m scrolling through social media all at the same time. I’ve been trying to be more intentional about what I’m going to focus on at any given moment. One of the most effective methods of keeping my eyes fixed on Jesus is praise.
Yes! Being intentional about our time is so important. I have to be extra careful because I know I can’t focus on more than one thing (especially since I can’t focus on one thing well).
Oh boy, do I get distracted by fear! I’m so grateful I can keep coming back, keep circling around, and that God is ready for me every single time. Not only that, but I discover He was circling with me the whole time.
Yes! No matter how many times we stumble, God never gives up on us. So thankful for that.